Blog changes

Thanks to everyone who followed Training Because I Can! over the last nine years. This blog started with Addison's Disease, hypothyroidism and a crazy idea of doing an Ironman distance triathlon. My life has changed and so has this blog. I am using this blog strictly for Addison's Support topics from here on out. I hope to continue providing people with hints for living life well with adrenal insufficiency.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Inspiration: Six year old surfer with adrenal insufficiency




Monday, September 29, 2014

Getting better, slowly but surely


"Absolutely ridiculous" is how I'd describe some of my behavior over the last two months.  Unfortunately, not "absolutely ridiculous" in a great, fun way.  I thought I'd be the exception rather than the rule, I'd get shit done, this surgery wouldn't slow me down.  I was so wrong.  Over the last two months, I've gotten so very little done.  My behavior has ranged from pathetic to really pathetic.  Nearly two months post surgery, I'm still in pain, still exhausted.  Three and a half months after my initial injury, I've slept very poorly nearly each and every night.  The pain is normal, the lack of sleep is not only normal but expected for at least another month.  Recovery from surgery is three to six months and full recovery is one year.

The good news is that I stopped taking pain meds ten days ago and within the last seven days, I've stopped crying hysterically for little to no reason.  I only cry for pretty good reasons now.  I've been exercising more, walking mostly.  The best news is that nearly SEVEN weeks after surgery and nearly total immobilization of my shoulder, I am in physical therapy and out of the stupid, sweaty, stinky sling.  I can do a little more than before.  Sweeping and mopping the floor is not excruciatingly painful.  Cooking and cleaning up after cooking is still very awful.  Thank you deli section and your rotisserie chicken!  Thank you Sam's Club and your gigantic, mixed, organic salad.

Did I mention that we moved from one coast to the other three weeks after surgery?  Yes, we moved from Punta Gorda to Vero Beach.  Vero is lovely.  We are close enough to the beach to go often.  There are grocery stores near our home.  The community has more to offer.  Our new neighborhood is new, nice and quiet.  There are few children (no offence people with kids!) but it's not a retirement community or, like our last neighborhood, hospice community.

I'm still taking, what I consider, a shit load of hydrocortisone.  I'm starting to wonder if my thyroid meds are too high, sigh.  I have no doctor here.  How does one order labs when she has no doctor.  Yes, I will call my PG doctor but do not have high hopes.  If he will not order the labs, it's time to make appointments, wait and interview doctors and then see if they will help me. Sigh.  Just thinking about setting up an appointment is taxing.

Well, I'm going to go take a nap.  Enjoy the pictures from Vero Beach.



Vero Beach sunrise

Vero Beach

Vero Beach, here comes the day

Vero Beach

Vero Beach, graffiti



Saturday, September 20, 2014

I can pull my underwear up with two hands

Yeah, pulling your underwear up with two hands might not sound like a big deal.  It is.  After six weeks of pulling my underwear up with one hand, it's a thrill to easily slide them up and on.  I can nearly reach my left arm pit with my right hand (without propping the right hand up on something).  Progress is happening.  Slowly.  Very, very slowly.

This shoulder surgery has been the hardest thing I've ever done.  It may even be harder than being undiagnosed with adrenal insufficiency.  I have become virtually useless, short tempered, my mind doesn't work, each and everything I do takes twice as long, my driving is dangerous (stick shift and a useless right arm), constantly exhausted and on the verge of tears at all times.  I have been humbled.  I am so dependent upon others (STILL) that it's not even funny.  I nearly burst into tears if I'm in the grocery store and someone helps me empty my cart on to the belt.  Every night, I'm thankful to fall asleep and not have to need anything or wish I had help doing things.

Sleep is another matter.  Since I hurt myself on June 20th, I've rarely slept well.  Each and every time I turn or move, the shoulder lets me know and wakes me up.  I haven't slept on my right side in three months.  For the last six weeks, I have only been able to "sleep" on my back.  Ugh!  

Each day, I wake up hopeful that it will be better than the last.  I hope that I will accomplish something.  I wish, each and every day, that I had someone to put my hair in a pony tail so I look like less of a wreck. I am hoping that the circles under my eyes are not permanent.  Each day is getting incrementally better for the most part.  The pain has lessened.  I am allowed to be out of the sling.  I can use my hand and forearm more.  The right arm, even if it's out of the sling, does not work well.  It hangs limply by my side or is tightly held against my chest.  I can only walk about a half mile with it out of the sling before it gets very uncomfortable.  Sigh.  

Physical therapy starts Monday.  I will fall into another ring of Hell.  I have been told by several people, including an ortho friend,  that shoulder physical therapy is very painful.  I like opiates and all but, damn, I'm tired of them.

I wonder, if I had known how awful this time post surgery would be, would I have had the surgery?  Would I have opted for being slightly disabled?  Time will tell.  I hope that this arm works once I've regained strength and range of motion.  I really hope that all this mental and physical pain was worth it.  

Perhaps I need to show more gratitude?

I have been getting out and walking on the beautiful beach.


I've been spending time with my sweet bird, Keiko.



The view out the back of the house is amazing. I have really been enjoying it.

Sandhill Crane

Amazing view out the back windows

I'm also thankful for my husband for putting up with me.  Thanks to Jim S., Yogi and Molly for texting/Facebooking me every day with great stories of the things they are doing as well as support and encouragement when I need it most.  Thanks to Milissa, Donna, Allison and my mom for the late birthday presents.  I love getting something in the mailbox when I least expect it.  Thank you, Bonnie, for the cards.  Thank you, Heather, for the funnies that appear in my inbox with regularity.  Thanks to everyone who is sending good thoughts my way.